Humans are born with a desire. An utter unwavering desire from a worldly point of view. They ache for any sort of fulfillment.
People do things to make them numb when they’re feeling too much or they do things to make them feel something when they’re numb.
So many are addicted to feeling temporary happiness, something that has the ability to take them away from the pain of the world for even a moment. Because life is only ever just glimpses of falling and dancing and dancing and falling. Some feel they need to chug a whole bottle of vodka in one sitting, some turn the music up so loud that they could barely hear the words the world is trying to sneak in, and some people sit in rooms thinking of words that somehow match their minds. They think they can substitute the pain as well as the love they weren’t given with something else. But, you can only temporarily escape it. The uncomfortable will always lie within you if not addressed. I hope this existence knows they can live on feeling truly and utterly alive once the serenity in their hearts become exposed.
Since the beginning of time, when we were woven in the depths of the earth, humans have believed time after time again that we, as humans have grown due to external beauty. But we will always be the same, with a hole in our heart, seeing destruction disguised as beauty and grasping it thinking it can fill the void when the answer is right in front of their very eyes. The world overpowers their ability to fathom that their Creator is the One who hears hearts before they begin to talk and He holds them our whole lives the way He did when he was creating the uniqueness in every human heart.
The days lie numbered but determined by the Heart Maker. And we often forget that when we close our eyes for one last time, that is when we will be asked if we heard the music while in life’s greatest depths and some will have no idea what that means as their numbered days were being seen from a worldly view. For they didn’t know when they looked up that there were stars in the darkness.
The stars watch the changing and collisions of lives yet they still shine in the dark.
Maybe we needed to die (though our hearts still beat), to find ourselves and to truly live as we felt every inch of the earth and the depths that life carries on.
All I know is I want to live like actually live and it’s okay to be sad because living holds this very feeling. So live on. Really live and experience and know you don’t need to escape because we must feel the earth while we’re in it.